I thought I'd give a little background to myself before going on with my post. I am in my early 20's and was attending college up until last year. Some personal family issues as well as lack of funds prohibited me from returning. My school was my life. It was the best thing to have ever happened to me. I've always been very shy, reserved, and quite frankly, lacking in some social skills. I've never been the girl that goes out and parties a lot. I've never had a lot of friends and therefore lacked certain experiences when I was younger. That all changed when I went to college and I started to discover who I really was and began to have a social life. My friends from school stopped talking to me when they found out that I wouldn't be coming back for a while and that hurt quite deeply. When It was all taken away, i fell into a deep depression and I locked myself away and wished every day that I wouldn't wake up to see another day. People may think its not that big of a deal and on the surface it may not be but it is the underlying issues that make it so bad. After almost a year of locking myself away, I decided to start experiencing life again. I wanted to make friends and realize that even though I may not be at school right now, my life isn't over. I got angry with God for allowing me to get so sad and I realized that that wasn't the right thing to do. So, I decided to put myself out there and that is where my journey began.
I haven't had much success with True.com so I pretty much put that on the back burner. Not canceling my membership or anything but definitely not being totally proactive either. I haven't been to any Meetup events either. I was getting a little discouraged and wondered why nothing was working out and then I realized what was missing. I had been so angry with God and religion that I had forgotten how essential He is in my life. My mom and I started going to a church we used to go to and they have a young adult ministry and I've attended a couple meetings. Its so great to be among the living again. We study the Bible and of course just hang out and talk about random stuff. I've made some good friends and I've been enjoying it. Its just funny to me that I've been trying all these methods to make friends and develop a social life when all that was needed was to go to church and get back with Jesus. Since I'll be doing a lot more and experiencing a lot more, I'll be writing more often. Wish me luck Guys!!!!!
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